Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Um...I think it's all a cop out. See, if we're not "officially" together then it's easy for him to say, "oh well we weren't really together anyways." A lot of this really doesn't make sense...i just never say anything...because like I said, I don't wanna rock the boat.
Friday, January 15, 2010
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
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Monday, January 4, 2010
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Thursday, December 10, 2009
So I've been in this relationship with a great guy for about 6 months now and up until about 2 weeks ago everything was going great. We're in a long distance relationship and I plan to meet him later this year. When we met and I'd asked him if he was dating anyone he honestly answered "Yeah, I'm seein' this girl." Our relationship progressed quickly and we made it official. We both understood the tremendous pressure and strain long distance puts on a relationship but decided to pursue it anyways.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Doesn't it seem like whatever can go wrong all goes wrong at one time? Im not one for complaining on and on like a spoiled, woe-is-me brat but I gotta get the lead out somehow. My mom's health is ailling her. Aches and pains. If it isn't one thing, it's another type of thing...she's pretty tough and works through it. Her arm starts killing her and she goes to the doctor only to find out she has a blood clot from an IV she had in her arm some months back. The good news is that some blood is flowing around the clot. She is prescribed these 3 little shots of cumedin or whatever it's called that I give her in her stomach. $400 for 3 SYRINGES! We cannot afford that but my mom's health is worth every penny. She is not on the shots anymore and I am hopeful that the clot will dissolve in time and not do any damage...that's the best I can hope for.
Now, apart from that, we...no I have a credit card to pay down or it's going to collections...I really don't wanna start with bad credit so early in my adult life.
On a positive note, I am thankful for life and my family & friends. Faith sustains me while I try to keep from coming unglued.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Yes, I am happy now. I finally found someone to make me happy. I thank God for him I really do. I had to step back and ask myself if because I fell so quickly for him does that mean I didn't really have feelings for the one before? Well, I've decided that my feelings for the other were nothing but genuine but it simply was not meant to be. I deserve someone with all the courage,strength, and passion to love me as I am. I prayed and prayed for God to give me...let's call him (Josh). Well I prayed that things would work out in my favor with Josh and when it finally seemed like it would...BOOM he had to blow it all apart and for what...I don't know and I couldn't care less. I'll always care about (Josh) as a friend for as long as we remain in contact, but I'm in love with someone else and I have a good feeling about this. All things in God's time and if it wasn't meant to be with (Josh) then it wasn't meant to be. I thought NO man could hold a candle to (Josh) then I met Will. Frankly, I'm lucky because (Josh) has some serious issues within himself.
My advise to anyone who has been hurt and is afraid to be vulnerable or love again is to love as if you've never been hurt.
"Love is when thoughts of but one man fill your heart, when he means more than life to you, when you know you would do anything for him and shall die if he is taken from you. Desire is when you ache to see him and touch him, when he causes your body to burn and tremble. Desire does not demand love before it can ensnare you, but desire with love creates a powerful bond"